Po\u0159\u00e1d m\u011b bav\u00ed objevovat fale\u0161n\u00e9 my\u0161lenky o sob\u011b sam\u00e9. O tom jak\u00e1 jsem. Je neuve\u0159iteln\u00fd kolik myln\u00fdch p\u0159edstav (takov\u00fdch bublinek) u\u017e jsem praskla a st\u00e1le se vyno\u0159uj\u00ed dal\u0161\u00ed. Zbo\u017e\u0148uju bublifuky \ud83d\ude42 te\u010f v\u00edm, pro\u010d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u0159eba jedna z m\u00fdlek. M\u00e1m velkou pot\u0159ebu okolnostem rozum\u011bt, pochopit je rozumov\u011b, zanalyzovat je a pak bych z nich asi r\u00e1da slo\u017eila nov\u00fd dokonal\u00fd obr\u00e1zek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jenom\u017ee jsem se narodila v \u017eensk\u00e9m t\u011ble. Z\u0159ejm\u011b m\u00e1m v sob\u011b i n\u011bjak\u00e9 k\u00f3dy, kter\u00e9 m\u011b vedou. A tak mi v posledn\u00ed dob\u011b anal\u00fdza v\u016fbec nep\u0159in\u00e1\u0161\u00ed pocit uspokojen\u00ed, klidu a napln\u011bn\u00ed, po kter\u00e9m jako \u017eena tou\u017e\u00edm Plnost srdce, takov\u00e9 to „aaaaach“, kdy se rozplynu ve v\u016fn\u00edch, zvuc\u00edch, pocitov\u00e9 m\u011bkkosti….<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A tak jsem zjistila, \u017ee mnohem v\u00edc mi lad\u00ed synt\u00e9za. Co\u017e znamen\u00e1 obejmout. Obejmout to v\u0161echno, co m\u011b pr\u00e1v\u011b te\u010f obklopuje. Situace, my\u0161lenky, lidi, moje vnit\u0159n\u00ed rozpolo\u017een\u00ed, chut\u011b i nechut\u011b, spokojenost i rozlad\u011bn\u00ed, radost i smutek…cel\u00fd ten pel mel, ve kter\u00e9m se nach\u00e1z\u00edm…a \u017ee v jednu minutu toho dok\u00e1\u017eu pro\u017e\u00edvat opravdu hodn\u011b. Nicm\u00e9n\u011b od jist\u00e9 doby, u\u017e o tom st\u00e1le m\u00e9n\u011b p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm (kdy\u017e to ud\u011bl\u00e1m, st\u00e1v\u00e1 se to, v\u017edycky m\u011b to dostane do \u0159it\u011b….te\u010f u\u017e v\u00edm, \u017ee analyzuju, rozd\u011bluju se na kousky….a j\u00e1 se m\u00e1m obalit, p\u0159ijmout a z\u016fstat cel\u00e1), st\u00e1le v\u00edce nadechuju, co je a nech\u00e1v\u00e1m sebou proplouvat v\u0161echny ty pocity („mod\u0159\u00ed v\u011bd\u00ed“ je jich opravdu dostate\u010dn\u00e9 mno\u017estv\u00ed na „velikou z\u00e1bavu“). <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pot\u0159ebuju se st\u00e1le v\u00edce zastavovat (t\u0159eba na p\u00e1r minut), jakoby srovnat hladinu anal\u00fdzy a synt\u00e9zy, d\u011blen\u00ed se a zcelov\u00e1n\u00ed se. P\u0159ijet\u00ed m\u00e1 z\u00e1zra\u010dnou moc n\u00e1plasti na v\u0161echno, je to p\u0159irozen\u00fd ten nejr\u016f\u017eov\u011bj\u0161\u00ed „brufen“ na sv\u011bte…pro m\u011b, ur\u010dit\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lidi mi pak \u0159\u00edkaj\u00ed, \u017ee jsem „ul\u00edtl\u00e1“, \u017ee si l\u00edt\u00e1m. A j\u00e1, paradoxn\u011b, v tu chv\u00edli velmi siln\u011b p\u0159ist\u00e1v\u00e1m v t\u011ble, c\u00edt\u00edm naplno v\u0161echno, co se v n\u011bm d\u011bje. C\u00edt\u00edm i nohy na zemi a to mi d\u00e1v\u00e1 pevnost a s\u00edlu. Letu se to nepodob\u00e1 ani trochu. Ale bal\u00f3nem bych se n\u011bkdy r\u00e1da prolet\u011bla \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Suma sum\u00e1rum, moje anal\u00fdzy byly pro moje \u017eensk\u00e9 t\u011blo \u00fapln\u011b antiproduktivn\u00ed, nepot\u0159ebuju rozum\u011bt, nepot\u0159ebuju nic skl\u00e1dat. Pot\u0159ebuju obj\u00edmat ve v\u0161ech v\u00fdznamech tohoto slova. A mo\u017en\u00e1 je to v\u0161eobecn\u011b jinov\u00e1 (\u017eensk\u00e1) esence \ud83d\ude42 R\u00e1da si p\u0159e\u010dtu jak to m\u00e1te vy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Po\u0159\u00e1d m\u011b bav\u00ed objevovat fale\u0161n\u00e9 my\u0161lenky o sob\u011b sam\u00e9. O tom jak\u00e1 jsem. Je neuve\u0159iteln\u00fd kolik myln\u00fdch p\u0159edstav (takov\u00fdch bublinek) u\u017e jsem praskla a st\u00e1le se vyno\u0159uj\u00ed dal\u0161\u00ed. Zbo\u017e\u0148uju bublifuky \ud83d\ude42 te\u010f v\u00edm, pro\u010d. T\u0159eba jedna z m\u00fdlek. M\u00e1m velkou pot\u0159ebu okolnostem rozum\u011bt, pochopit je rozumov\u011b, zanalyzovat je a pak bych z nich asi r\u00e1da […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":301,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3006","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3006","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3006"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3006\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3009,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3006\/revisions\/3009"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/301"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3006"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3006"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3006"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}