<\/a>s t\u00edm, \u017ee budu trp\u011bt, makat, furt budu frustrovan\u00e1, smutn\u00e1, chlapi m\u011b budou tr\u00e1pit. \u017de budu slab\u00e1, vlastn\u011b se v \u017eivot\u011b topit a pop\u0159\u00edpad\u011b to m\u016f\u017eu vy\u0159e\u0161it utopen\u00edm se v alkoholu a nebo se vypnout pr\u00e1\u0161kama.<\/p>\n\n\n\nNecht\u011bla jsem to takhle, ale nem\u011bla jsem moc n\u00e1vodu jak to ud\u011blat jinak. Rodinn\u00e9 otisky jsou prost\u011b siln\u00e9. Odez\u00edr\u00e1te od okol\u00ed, ale gen\u016fm a d\u011btsk\u00fdm pro\u017eitk\u016fm jenom pozorovat nesta\u010d\u00ed. Je to jako magnet a zase v\u00e1s to sto\u010d\u00ed sm\u011br, kter\u00fd je zaryt\u00fd……jedin\u00e1 mo\u017enost je pou\u017e\u00edt svou v\u016fli, rozbu\u0161it srdce pro \u017divot a pomalu a trp\u011bliv\u011b m\u011bnit sv\u00e9 reakce, chov\u00e1n\u00ed, p\u0159\u00edstupy, my\u0161len\u00ed, \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed situac\u00ed…a\u017e se v\u00e1m za\u010dnou objevovat nov\u00e9 \u00fahly pohledu, nov\u00e9 pocity, nov\u00e9 pro\u017eitky….ty star\u00e9 se je\u0161t\u011b vrac\u00ed, ale u\u017e m\u00e1me z\u00e1znam t\u011bch nov\u00fdch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tak\u017ee jsem jako „vypnut\u00e1“, tak tomu \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m, tvrd\u011b sportovala, \u0161la na presti\u017en\u00ed gympl, studovala t\u011blocvik…v\u0161ude jsem byla ne\u0161\u0165astn\u00e1, c\u00edtila se nemo\u017en\u011b, c\u00edtila jsem, \u017ee nic nedok\u00e1\u017eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cht\u011bla jsem sv\u016fj „program: \u017eena trp\u00ed“ prost\u011b p\u0159eprat, p\u0159emoct pohybem, sportem, v\u00fdkonem….vzala jsem si za mu\u017ee logick\u00e9ho, praktick\u00e9ho, tradi\u010dn\u00edho mu\u017ee….jasn\u011b: p\u0159epereme spont\u00e1nn\u00ed chaotick\u00fd \u017eivot \u017eeny logikou a praktickou konstruktivnost\u00ed….<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kdo m\u011b zn\u00e1, v\u00ed, \u017ee tohle u\u017e ne\u017eiju…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nakonec jsem zabalila zbran\u011b sportu, tvrd\u00e9 pr\u00e1ce, logiky, kter\u00e1 ztr\u00e1c\u00ed pru\u017enost a spont\u00e1nnost, vyka\u0161lala se na dokazov\u00e1n\u00ed skrze v\u00fdkon…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zap\u00edn\u00e1m se…zji\u0161tuju, kdo je to \u017eena, bez minulosti, bez toho, co vid\u00edm kolem, zji\u0161\u0165uji to skrze sv\u00e9 c\u00edt\u011bn\u00ed, empatii….jemnost, n\u011bhu, pomalost, trp\u011blivost, tlukouc\u00ed srdce, nep\u0159edv\u00eddatelnost, chaos, kter\u00fd m\u00e1 \u0159\u00e1d v cyklech….neboj\u00edm se sv\u00fdch siln\u00fdch emoc\u00ed, proto\u017ee je um\u00edm kdykoli ukon\u010dit, zn\u00e1m je, rozum\u00edm jim….<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Um\u00edm si \u0159\u00edct o obejmut\u00ed, o pomoc, um\u00edm d\u00e1t sama sob\u011b hranice, kdy\u017e pad\u00e1m do star\u00fdch kolej\u00ed…..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mil\u00e9 \u017eeny, p\u0159esta\u0148me zrazovat sv\u00e9 \u017eenstv\u00ed, zapn\u011bme se do polohy „on“…\u00a8jak to pozn\u00e1te?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Rozhodn\u011b nem\u00e1te zapot\u0159eb\u00ed n\u011bco ud\u011blat v n\u011bjak\u00e9m limituj\u00edc\u00edm \u010dase za ur\u010dit\u00fdch p\u0159esn\u011b dan\u00fdch pravidel a s jasn\u011b dan\u00fdm sk\u00f3re v\u00fdsledku…rozhodn\u011b nebudete cht\u00edt d\u00e1vat na odiv sv\u00e9 vysvalen\u00e9 t\u011blo, nebudete cht\u00edt m\u00edt ka\u017ed\u00fd den stejn\u00fd, dotek je pro v\u00e1s jako osv\u011b\u017euj\u00edc\u00ed \u010dist\u00e1 voda, zn\u00e1te svou hodnotu l\u00e1skyplnosti a nenech\u00e1te se druh\u00fdmi vyu\u017e\u00edvat k otrock\u00e9 v\u00fdkonnostn\u00ed pr\u00e1ci….<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Poj\u010fme se „zapnout“, a\u0165 vytv\u00e1\u0159\u00edme smyslupln\u00e9 vztahy, kter\u00e9 jsou to NEJV\u00cdC<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kdy\u017e je v\u00e1m blb\u011b, kdo v\u00e1m uva\u0159\u00ed \u010daj? Spln\u011bn\u00e9 kv\u00f3ty v pr\u00e1ci a va\u0161e \u010dinka vedle postele, drah\u00fd o\u010dn\u00ed kr\u00e9m?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Howgh<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Narodila jsem se jako \u017eena. M\u00e1m prost\u011b \u017eensk\u00e9 fyzick\u00e9 pohlavn\u00ed znaky. Dlouho jsem ale v\u016fbec \u017eena necht\u011bla b\u00fdt. Rad\u011bji jsem se „vypnula“ B\u00fdt \u017eenou jsem m\u011bla spojen\u00e9 s t\u00edm, \u017ee budu trp\u011bt, makat, furt budu frustrovan\u00e1, smutn\u00e1, chlapi m\u011b budou tr\u00e1pit. \u017de budu slab\u00e1, vlastn\u011b se v \u017eivot\u011b topit a pop\u0159\u00edpad\u011b to m\u016f\u017eu vy\u0159e\u0161it utopen\u00edm […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1883,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1879","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-nezarazene"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1879","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1879"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1879\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1883"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1879"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1879"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ladadudova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1879"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}